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Loving Spankings- Part I

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It is rare that I am given the opportunity to bring such a poignant and articulate story to my reader’s as this. Carol has given me permission to quote or use her story as I deem useful.

While not everyone has the same outcome from spankings as Carol did–there are millions of people, who are too embarrassed and humiliated to tell their story or they believe as so many people do–“it didn’t do me any harm so it can’t do my child any harm.” Unlike Carol, they don’t connect the cause and effect of their emotional dysfunction and physical illnesses to their ‘Loving Spankings.” Please read Carol’s story in its entirety, because first-person truth is better than any research findings done by a clinical double blind study or case studies.

Non-abusive “Loving Spankings” Messed Me Up For Life

When I was a little girl and my mother thought I required discipline, she would pull me face down across her lap and give me a series of stinging slaps of her hand on my bare buttocks while I cried. In fifteen seconds it was over. I would be in tears and clutching my bottom for a minute or so, but it didn’t really hurt much after that, just a hot itch. My rear end would be a solid pink right afterwards. But in a few hours it would be back to normal. And that was that.

I was not “abused” as a child, just “spanked with love.” She never left a bruise when she “lovingly spanked” me. The permanent marks were inside, not outside.

Mother firmly believed in spankings as discipline for her children because they “worked” so well. All she needed to do if my behavior displeased her was say, “Carol, do you want a spanking?” and that would frighten me into obeying her. And if she told me to do the dishes and I didn’t do them very well and got spanked for it you can bet those dishes were unusually spotless for the next couple of days. But spankings also left me with lifelong emotional and sexual problems that I still don’t know how to fix despite years of therapy. My mother got an obedient daughter and cleaner dishes and I got a lifelong mess inside me.

If I were growing up today, Mother could post on parenting web forums about how “effective” spankings are as discipline for her daughters. She could brush aside concerns about emotional harm saying “an hour after I spank her, Carol is happily playing or doing her chores.” She could talk about my good grades in school. She could talk about how polite I am and respectful to my elders, and how she gets compliments from other adults about what a good girl I am in public. And if anyone tried to warn her that she might give her child a fetish, she could laugh and say, “Carol would never turn out like that. She hates to be spanked!” And nothing she said would be a lie.

I tried so hard to be good. But sooner or later I always found myself face down across my mother’s lap getting yet another spanking. I just couldn’t control it – except in my fantasies. In fantasy I could make everything happen just so, as if it really were under my control. My mother’s preferred discipline method emotionally upset me so much that I sexualized it – everything about it: the kind of clothing she wore and I wore, the things she would say before and after my spanking, the position she put me in, on and on. Fantasy let me cope with my trauma and get a pretend feeling of control over something really out of my control. When I imagined myself as a naughty girl over her Mommy’s lap getting her bare little bottom spanked I pictured myself crying and begging the Mommy to stop. Yet it was my fantasy so really I had total control. And by eroticizing, I made something awful and frightening into something delightful and pleasant.

And it worked. Becoming a spankophile at an early age kept me from falling apart. It comforted me when nothing else could. It made me feel in control when I wasn’t. And it gave me a make-believe escape from something for which there was no true escape. (How do you escape when it’s your very own Mommy who is hurting you???) And now I am stuck with it for the rest of my life.

Parents who say, “it didn’t do me any harm so it can’t do my child any harm” just don’t get it. Everyone is different. My mother got spanked when she was little, and she carried on the same tradition with my sister and me. But my mother didn’t become a spankophile. And although my sister got the same kinds of punishments as I did – across the same lap and from the same palm – she didn’t become a spankophile either. But I did. There is no way you can tell beforehand which of your spanked children will have a guilty sexualized fixation for the rest of her life. So any parent who spanks their child is putting them at risk. Punishing your child with spankings is just like playing a lottery where if you “win” you mess up your kid for life.

Most spanked kids don’t turn out as obsessed as me. But some of us do. And we aren’t rare. Growing up I knew two other little girls who both got spanked by their parents and who both loved to play House the same way I did: with play spankings, play spankings, and more play spankings all afternoon without ever getting bored. (At least two of us were strict disciplinarians of our dolls, too!) One girl would even get me to pretend to be her real life mother so we could re-enact actual episodes for which she had been disciplined in her home. For me to meet two others so like myself in this way would be almost impossible if kids like me were rare.

Now I am retired, unmarried, childless, on medication for depression. At a tender age I used my budding sexuality to cope with something I didn’t know how else to cope with. And it has left its mark on me forever. I’ve been paying the price all my life and I will never stop paying. I am unmarried because the circuits in my brain that should have been used for romance were vandalized by spankings instead. I am childless because I never married. So there is a direct link between my spankings, how I coped with them, and my being sexually abnormal, and hence never marrying and having any children of my own.

Not all of the harm is sexual in nature. An “it made me what I am today” pattern emerges whenever someone unexpectedly confronts me in an angry way about something I did. I have a bad habit of saying the first rationalization that pops into my mind, sometimes even lying. It just blurts itself out of me. And I don’t know how to change. It goes back so far. It is a habit I learned as a preschooler that sometimes saved me from a bottom warming. It usually didn’t, but something that works only occasionally is better than nothing at all.

Another lifelong bad effect of my spankings is that when someone orders me to do something in a stern authoritarian voice, I usually just cave in and do it even if I don’t feel right about what I am doing. It just happens, seemingly by itself. And it all goes back to my earliest years. Growing up in my “traditional values” family, children did as they were told and didn’t talk back. If you did, Mommy would turn you across her knee, pull down your panties and “teach you a lesson” right then and there. I sure learned my lessons! The trouble is, how do you unlearn that lesson as a grownup out in the world who has to stand up for herself? I just hate myself now whenever I realize that once again I let myself be someone’s doormat.

Today’s children should not have to go through what I went through. We know more now. Now we have websites such as nospank.net on which someone like me can tell what happened to her without sacrificing her privacy. My mother regretted spanking me once I finally told her about my fetish as an adult. She at least has the excuse that nobody told her how bad the side effects could be. Parents reading this website do not have that excuse anymore. No child should have to sacrifice their developing sexual self just to cope with the painful violence of a parent who claims to love them.

Spanking children is harmful, it is hurtful, it is violent, and it needs to stop. Parents reading this: please don’t use physical pain to discipline your children. ### Carol

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Why is Node.js important for your back-end web application?

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NodeJS has been the buzzword in the tech world lately. Many companies like PayPal, LinkedIn, and Uber are now using it to develop their apps. Other companies include Walmart, Groupon, and Yahoo. Here are a few reasons why you should take NodeJS training for your future career. This technology can make your job much easier and more rewarding. Learn about some of the advantages of this language, and why it will improve your job prospects in the future.

NodeJS is one of the most popular programming languages today. More than 95% of websites use it to develop the front-end. However, before 2009, it was used for only front-end development, and was used in conjunction with various server-side languages. In 2009, NodeJS was developed by Ryan Dahl, who surprised many developers when it was released. It is a powerful and efficient application development tool, which is rapidly growing in popularity.

Node is also a great language for building real-time interaction applications. Unlike browsing, these applications require fast communication between clients and servers. Furthermore, they often require persistent I/O. Node is the best choice for such a scenario. In addition to being easy to learn, Node is a fast-growing language, and you’ll have the opportunity to earn big from this skill.

Compared to Golang, NodeJS has an edge in error handling. It makes it easy to use callback functions. It is also easy to learn if you’re familiar with JavaScript. Node js training courses are structured learning processes that can be customized for your specific needs. The community of Node JS developers is large, which makes it easier to learn the language. The Node JS learning experience is also much more convenient than Go.

Node JS is easy to learn. It has an enormous developer community, which makes it very easy to learn. If you are an experienced JavaScript developer, learning Node JS is easier than Go, which is a popular language. Node JS courses can help you learn Go, JavaScript, or any other language. It also can help you become more productive. Node JS classes are structured and can provide an edge in the job market.

Node JS is a powerful application development language. It’s easy to learn and has a large community of dedicated developers. The Node JS language is a popular choice for web developers and many web development companies use it in their applications. Despite its popularity, it can be challenging to learn without the right training. You might not be comfortable with it, but it’s worth it for your future.

Node JS is a popular language among web developers. It is easy to learn, and it’s easy to use. Unlike other languages, Node JS is compatible with most web technologies. This means that it’s not only easier to learn Node JS than Go, but it’s also easier for non-JavaScript developers, too. Node JS is the language of the future.

Node JS is more versatile and flexible than Golang, which is another popular language. It is an asynchronous programming language, meaning that it uses callback functions to communicate with other programs. It’s also easier to learn for non-JavaScript developers. Node JS is more accessible than Go, so you should start learning it for the future. Node JS is easy to learn, but it’s not easy to learn.

Besides Node JS, it’s also a great language for developers. If you’re looking to build a web application, it’s important to learn NodeJS. This is the language of the future. It helps you create scalable web applications. If you’re looking for a fast-loading website, Node JS is the best choice. Its modular design makes it easy to integrate with other systems.

Node JS is a great way to build web applications. It’s a scalable and lightweight language. It’s also perfect for microservice architectures. It uses node modules to build functions. It can be independent and can be maintained independently. This is a huge advantage for developers. It’s easy to deploy and maintain. You can use it anywhere you want to. It can be used in mobile applications as well.

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How Glock Became America’s Favorite Handgun

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The Glock became the talk of the town during the 1980s because it could hold 17 bullets rather than just 6 and didn’t need extraordinary force for pressing the trigger. Soon, this gun became popular worldwide because of its amazing features. The armed forces in the United States were looking for a powerful, handy, and reliable pistol after the Miami shootout in 1986. By that time, the Glock had gained a lot of fame in Europe.

But, if we talk about the United States, it’s a fact that the Glock is the favorite handgun and the very first choice of every person. Here are some reasons why Glock is preferred more than any other kind of gun.

It is Lightweight

The Glock guns are made up of polyester rather than steel. Besides this, these guns even contain firearm material and polymer clay. This firearm took the entire United States by storm because of its outstanding quality. So, anyone who needs a handgun for self-defense or looking for something that could be a valuable addition to their armory can purchase a glock 80% polymer pistol from 80 Percent Arms.

It is Available in a Variety of Models

One can find a variety of Glock models available in the market. This is also a great reason this gun is so famous in the United States. The very first model of Glock was launched in the market during the 1980s; from then till now, the weapon has not gone through any amendment as such. However, the variation in models is due to the caliber or range of the gun.

It is Reliable and Convenient 

One of the reasons Glock became the favorite handgun in the United States of America is that it is very reliable and convenient to use. In 1982 the Glock met the needs of Austrian military officers who were looking for a reliable and efficient handgun. There is hardly any handgun that could meet Glock’s standards.

Its Design is Simple

Talk about the design of this handgun; it is just as simple as anything. Its simplicity makes it unique, convenient to use, and the best choice for almost everyone. Also, the simple design of this gun makes it easier for the owners to handle this weapon with care and thus reduces the chances of accidental injuries and death.

The Law Enforcement Agencies Prefer It

Glock became popular in the United States when law enforcement agencies began to use it despite its features. After that, almost all of the armed forces were using Glock, and this was exactly when this weapon began to hold the attention of the majority.

Glock is undoubtedly the safest, most reliable, handy, and convenient handgun one can find in the market. These lightweight pistols could prove to be life-saving and the most reliable thing you would ever need to protect yourself from life-threatening situations. No wonder it has made its way into rap lyrics, 2/3 of all the US police departments

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Chinese Hackers Using Log4Shell Exploit Tools to Perform Post-Exploitation Attacks

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Chinese Hackers Using Log4Shell Exploit Tools to Perform Post-Exploitation Attacks

The cybersecurity firm, CrowdStrike has warned that Chinese hackers are using the Log4Shell exploit tools to perform various post-exploitation operations.

The hacker group behind these malicious operations, Aquatic Panda was seen using the Log4Shell vulnerability, with the help of a large academic institution.

In early December the Log4Shell and LogJam vulnerability, which were tracked as CVE-2021-44228 was discovered in the popular Log4j logging library.

Aquatic Panda

Aquatic Panda is a Chinese hacking group that is operating since May 2020 and it has two primary goals:-

  • Intelligence collection.
  • Industrial espionage.

This hacking group mainly targets all its users from the following sectors:-

  • Telecommunications sectors
  • Technology sectors
  • Government sectors

Apart from this, the AQUATIC PANDA counts on the following tools for the execution of all its operations:-

  • Cobalt Strike
  • FishMaster (Unique Cobalt Strike downloader.)
  • njRAT

Technical Analysis

To gain initial access to the target system, the Aquatic Panda uses a modified version of the exploit for a bug in Log4j, and then it performs several post-exploitation activities like:-

  • Exploration
  • Credential collection

The hackers targeted VMware Horizon that used the vulnerable Log4j library to compromise a large academic institution, and on December 13, 2021, the exploit used in this attack was published on GitHub.

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Using the DNS lookups for a subdomain running on VMware Horizon as part of Apache Tomcat, the threat actors performed a connection check.

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On the Windows host where the Apache Tomcat service was running, the team ran a series of Linux commands, and not only that even they also performed the same on those aimed at deploying malicious tools that are hosted on remote infrastructure.

Here at this point to better understand privilege levels and learn more about the domain, the threat actors have also conducted surveillance efforts. While they also tried to interrupt a response solution and third-party endpoint threat detection solution.

The malware and three VBS files were extracted by the hackers through PowerShell commands, and to accomplish this, additional scripts were deployed by the hackers.

At this stage, by performing memory dumps and preparing them for theft, the threat actors of Aquatic Panda attempted several trials to collect credentials.

Moreover, the attacked academic institution was timely warned of suspicious activities to be able to quickly use the incident response protocol, fixing vulnerable software and deterring further development of the malicious activity.

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