Rachel Lindsay doesn’t really feel any connection to Bachelor Nation anymore after her cut up from Bryan Abasolo.

Through the Wednesday, July 3, episode of Scott Evans‘ YouTube collection, Lindsay, 39, was requested about her place throughout the franchise now.

“It’s bizarre that you simply say this as a result of now I really feel fully indifferent,” she shared. “Now that I’m going by this divorce — and we’re separated — there’s nothing tying me to it.”

Lindsay famous that the plan was to at all times maintain far, including, “My objective after I completed the present was to step away from it and actually concentrate on the connection, but additionally for folks to get to know that I truly had a life and was an individual earlier than.”

Regardless of discovering love on the hit ABC courting present — and making historical past because the first-ever Black lead — Lindsay didn’t need to simply be identified for that.

“I needed folks to say, ‘Oh, that woman was on that present. However I do know her from this and this and this,’” she added. “I’m by no means denying that I used to be the primary Black Bachelorette — I put on it very proudly.”

Lindsay and Abasolo, 44, turned a pair after assembly on season 13 of The Bachelorette in 2017. Whereas they ended the season engaged, Lindsay nonetheless questioned how their story was depicted to viewers on the time.

“The Bachelor franchise does consider in completely happy endings — some folks get an on-camera completely happy ending, some folks get an off-camera completely happy ending, and a few folks get each,” she wrote in 2018 in an unique weblog for Us Weekly following the Bachelorette finale. “As for my completely happy ending, it was not demonstrated throughout the confines of your tv screens, however I’m dwelling it day-after-day in actual life.”

Lindsay and Abasolo tied the knot in 2019. Us confirmed earlier this 12 months that he filed for divorce, and the proceedings have taken a messy flip. Lindsay requested in paperwork filed late final month that the courtroom order $9,882 month-to-month in spousal help to her ex. Abasolo, in the meantime, reportedly responded by requesting that Lindsay pay him $16,275 month-to-month, in response to docs obtained by TMZ.

Throughout Wednesday’s interview, Lindsay candidly mentioned being the topic of “controversy” each all through her season and after her time because the Bachelorette.

“All the pieces I did on the present had a tinge of controversy,” Lindsay mentioned, recalling how she “performed the function” till her season was over earlier than taking a stand about “the shortage of range” on the present — to no avail.

“Individuals obtained aggravated with me. Individuals have been like, ‘She’s at all times complaining.’ No. While you love one thing, you need it to be its finest,” she continued. “I beloved the present and every part that it delivered to me. It wasn’t essentially the franchise, it was the viewers. I get quite a lot of love however the poisonous aspect simply sounds a lot louder.”

Lindsay has been vocal concerning the franchise’s lack of racial range, a subject govt producers Claire Freeland and Bennett Graebner lately addressed in an interview with The Los Angeles Occasions.

“It’s onerous to say out loud, that folks of colour didn’t see themselves represented, that they didn’t see The Bachelor franchise as a secure place,” Graebner mentioned final month. “We didn’t have a Black lead on this franchise for 15 years, and that’s inexcusable. It created a vicious cycle, and it’s taken quite a lot of work to get again to a spot the place we really feel not less than we’re working for the constructive.”

Graebner and Freeland mentioned it’s been a “precedence” to forged one other Black lead sooner or later after Matt James‘ Bachelor season aired in 2021. The Bachelorette, in the meantime, may have its first Asian lead as Jenn Tran takes middle stage when the present returns on July 8.