The Actual Housewives of Miami star Alexia Nepola is opening up for the primary time about how she’s feeling within the wake of her husband, Todd Nepola, submitting for divorce.

Alexia, 56, reveals she was greatly surprised by the information in Us Weekly’s unique clips from her and RHOM costar Marysol Patton’s “Ay Por Favor” podcast, which debuts tonight.

“For the primary week, for the primary two weeks — really, nonetheless right this moment, it’s been three weeks, and I’m nonetheless going again in my head like, ‘What occurred?’” Alexia tells Patton, 57, within the first clip as she fights again tears.

Alexia provides that she’s a “constructive” individual” so she tries to “take into consideration all the gorgeous occasions” with Todd, 51, and their “stunning journeys.”

“And I don’t need to have any anger, however I perceive that anger can also be one of many grieving stations … oh, phases,” Alexia says . “Yeah. I don’t even know what I’m saying. As a result of I discover myself misplaced.”

In one other clip from the brand new “Ay Por Favor” episode, he actuality star opens up about being “robust,” noting that “life doesn’t put together you for emotional power.”

“We’re not born with that emotional power, however I’ve it due to all my life classes,” Alexia says as she cries, including she’s “struggling.” “However everyone’s like, ‘You bought this. You’re so robust.’”

“It pisses me off, can I inform you?” Marysol provides.

“I’m robust, however I’m human,” Alexia continues by tears.

The upcoming episode of iHeartMedia’s “Ay Por Favor” is Alexia’s first episode since April 8. She took a hiatus amid her divorce information, and Patton uploaded a short solo episode on April 15 to specific her assist for her cohost. “I’m utterly taken unexpectedly. I didn’t see this coming,” Patton stated on the time. “It rips my coronary heart aside as a result of I can solely put myself in her sneakers and know the way arduous this have to be for her.”

Us confirmed on April 15 that Todd filed for divorce from Alexia after three years of marriage. Later that day, Alexia took to social media to handle the information — and famous that it caught her unexpectedly.

“I’m shocked and heartbroken that Todd has chosen to dissolve our marriage,” Alexia wrote through her Instagram Story on the time. “I’ll take consolation in the truth that my family and friends will likely be by my aspect supporting me throughout this tough time.”

Alexia made her first public look because the information broke to cohost a drag brunch at HK Corridor in Manhattan’s Hell’s Kitchen alongside Patton on Saturday, April 27. “I’m doing good now that I’m right here!” Alexia advised the group.

Alexia credited her RHOM costars for supporting her. “That’s the great thing about our present,” she stated. “Though we are saying issues to one another that we don’t like, on the finish of the day, once I want them, they’re there. After my information broke out about two weeks in the past, Larsa [Pippen] was one of many first ones to name me after Julia [Lemigova]. All people known as me, texted me. They’re all there for me. They investigate cross-check me. Truthfully, that’s what I like a lot about our franchise.”

Hearken to Alexia and Patton’s full episode of the “Ay Por Favor” podcast on Monday, April 29 at 12 a.m. ET.